Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Can I get excited yet?
I want to be excited about something going on but I'm afraid I'll be disappointed. Maybe "afraid" is too harsh a word. I'm not scared, I just don't want to get my hopes up just to set up for the letdown... If it comes. I'm not one of these worry wart people who can't enjoy life because something "may go wrong." But on past experience I have learned to limit my expectations for the sake of my sanity. Maybe it's a coping mechanism. I can say I trust God (yeah, he is in control of the universe whether we understand it or not) to handle the situation and to handle ME if I don't get what I want, and I hope that's where I am, instead of just skeptical. Part of me wants to SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS!!! The other part of me wants to forget anything's going on until certainty takes over. Oh well, I wrestle with myself for now. Hopefully, I can shout later. Yesterday on American Idol: Dawg! Randy got some new choppers over the weekend. Did you see those pearly whites?