Sunday, September 10, 2006
Adult A.D.D. AAAUUURRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!
I was diagnosed off the scale with Attention Deficit Disorder in 1998. I've been on and off medication since then. About a month ago I decided to stop taking the medication because I needed to learn to cope and make life work drug free. HOW STUPID AM I????!!!!! I've been going crazy. The problem with ADDer's is NOT that they can't pay attention. They just pay attention to EVERYTHING. Focus is NOT in my mental dictionary. Today was a prime example. I completely forgot about 2 meetings. These were not meetings I was suppose to attend, they were ones I was suppose to LEAD. I got caught off guard and if it weren't for great helpers, I would have been in deep poopy. I didn't just forget them. I forgot to put them in my calendar, outlook, and palm treo 650. I got pretty torn out of the frame. I later spoke to my leaders about the need to get back on my meds. I don't know if I'd remember more, but I just wouldn't care as much when I screw up. Needless to say, I'm scheduling Dr. appointment to get back on some medicine.